I do have an impending fear about my promos results. call that instinct perhaps. It's getting on my nerve when i tried studying but nothing gets into my brain. i've shown sign of aging perhaps. Aging is such a painful visious cycle. Yaya i know you may argue about aging beautifully. hah. If everyone had the chance to age beatifully then yeah the cosmetic industry will be wiped out.
Am very distracted. one of those days when emotions strike me. Ouch! Had a bad day when it all started with a bad stomachache which i suspect is the dim sum i ate yesterday. 12th Oct is my sickening brother's birthday! and it falls on the same day as Wan Li and Viv's bro! oh whatever. is so hard to find someone that shares the same birth date as me :( Anyway wishes you guys all the best in pursuing your dreams.
Talk about rich kids. I'd never had a chance to fall under that category. So the only method is to work hard and make myself a rich kid! So pathetic. I cant help but wonder why are there so many well off kids around me. Young, affluent and spoilt. And i mean very. hahas. Maybe that is keeping me humble or am i just greedy and unsatisfied with my current status. yes i know that human wants is unlimited. am just being pragmatic, at least. The kids nowadays are so spoilt! They get the latest phone model(i lost mine 3G phone of a few months on a pathetic cab!), simple t-shirt that will cost them a bomb because they are paying for their brand, A/X, GUESS, GUCCI etc. So young and carrying designer stuffs, get the whole street to admire them and attract endless attention. Oh dear. I seriously hope i aint anywhere closer to that although i still desire to be richer. would love to travel, backpack and splurge on food! Oh and have a really cool family car to drive my friends around. I aint the selfish kind of guys that would buy a two seaters sport car. I Love my friends and they are my daily dosage of Vitamin L(ove) :)
I am a very blunt person. They say i hurt people with my frankness, hence implying that i should only say nice thing which every homosepians are doing. that's just not me! Friends that have been by my side would know how frank i am, with them. People would say i look better if i just do not talk. but hey that's my secondary job and i love my job. aint god nice enough to send you a guy that is blunt enough to point out your flaws? i would not change just because of some harmless comments. That's what makes me different and am sure i would find someone that would love me, everything about me! I am a person that lacks inner security! Just waiting patiently at a corner waiting for someone that is nice enough to fill it up nicely. I may appear all confident but yet i feel rather inferior inside.
Ego boost for me is just superficial. seriously. it doesnt really help fill my inner insecurities. Argh. i cant stand it that i am rumbling on my first long entry for like ages. but bare with it guys. i guess the cloudy days would be over soon and i would be all fine and working again. I just have to bounce back and perhaps am on the rebound now.
Dont look at me, if you're looking for direction. Cause i'd only let you down.
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Personal Calendar
Nov 23 - Lit P5
Nov 24 - St James Powerhouse
Nov 27 - Prom@Fullerton
Nov 29 - Malaysia
Dec 02 - Bintan
Dec 08 - Hongkong
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